keep on waking up at 3am nowadays.. not in any way to my liking.. 

1. i dreamed quite a lot the last few days and woke up in a jolt every time.. and each time, it would be a little earlier or later than 3am.. sigh

2. usually i would successfully doze off into my sleep.. but no.. not today.. i tried and tried to go back into the deep sleep but i couldn't..

3. my head feels like there is a 2 tonnes traveling bag (is that even possible) sitting on it..

4. it hurts more when i try to force myself to sleep

5. i tried relaxing my mind.. imagining of peace and tranquility.. but then it strikes me, what should i be imagining.. i couldn't put any thing in my mind right now that equals serenity. i tried imagining bella in edward's arm.. didn't work.. i tried imagining beautiful things in the past, didn't work either.. tried imagining things that made me smile, people that i love, doesn't work at all.. uh-uh..

6. sick and tired of trying so hard but only getting this headache, i got up and turned on my laptop.. here i am, blogging about it.. 

7. at 3 am.. when what i really wanted to do right now is get as much sleep as possible..

8. working tomorrow.. sigh.. hey it actually should be a great thing for me.. if only i get a couple of hours sleep from what's left of the time..

9. gosh.. i'm yawning but sleeping, no.. not happening right now.. geez..

10. i hate 3 am..